ch-ch-changes!! Seems to be the theme in my life at the moment.

Sooooo

I have been in my new town for about a month now and I am still adjusting to the plethora of changes

I am now living in an apartment with just one other person and my dog. This is a freaking huge change. For the past 2 and a half years I had been living in a house packed with girls. I would have at least 3 roommates during any given semester. It's entirely different now. I am actually having to get things like kitchen appliances and furniture whereas before those sort of things were always taken care of by my roommates. In some ways it's different and will take some getting used to, but in other ways it has been incredibly enpowering. I don't feel like I am sharing the apartment but it feels like this is my apartment. There's a very big difference between the two.

Being a student again is a hard adjustment. I am finding myself with a severe lack of motivation to do the copious amount of reading but I think this is due to the fact I have not been a student for a year. Again it will take some getting used to.

I'm slowly adjusting to the fact I am not in Aggieland anymore which is very bittersweet. On one hand, I know it was a good decision to leave since A&M could no longer offer me anything in terms of forwarding my career. However, I also left many people who I love and care about immensely. Good decision but not an easy one in the least.

I have been questioning myself lately over whether or not I really chose the right school. I had a dream not long ago that I realized I had made a horrible mistake and was trying to transfer. Dreams like this do not help. 

I keep telling myself that it will get easier. This transition phase won't last forever. I just wish there was a way to fast forward all this. I've decided though that this is a good skill to learn. I seriously doubt I am going to stay in a college town forever so I will most likely have to do this again in the future. So it will be good to have some experience under my belt.

I have started all over once. I can do it again. It will just take a while.

in other news I have been on a vampire weekend kick lately and have had this song stuck in my head for a while

Click click click!!!

I tend to go on youtube primarily for the insane amount of musical talent out there. Admittedly my taste tends to be super hipster. You have been warned :)

Here's a little ditty that has caught my fancy lately.

Click ME

Hey,

So...blogging. Haven't done this in a while.

Since the departure from my Xanga days, I didn't think I would ever feel the need to inform people about my daily life again. I tend to be a private person and the whole notion was just a bit too much in the spotlight for my taste. However, the idea of blogging has suddenly not been able to leave me alone.

The genesis of this blog basically came from the season of life I am finding myself in now.

I am in the midst of immense change and I feel there is a lot I do not know.

I am not who I was five years ago. I am no longer a bright-eyed undergraduate. I graduated from college in December 2012. Since then I had been working and applying to different graduate programs. With the new year I am now a graduate student at a new school in a new town finally pursing the field I am so passionate about. I am in an environment where nothing is familiar and I am starting over.

And something inside of me is screaming

WRITE.THIS.DOWN.

I feel like I am at the phase in my story where most TV sitcoms and movies end. The audience assumes they lived happily ever after but what happens after the credits roll is rarely ever seen. I am approaching my mid-twenties and many of those in my friend group are moving on and establishing lives of their own. Some are getting married. Some have gotten mortgages. Some are in their career of choice, and others are starting families of their own.

I'm not there yet; I've still got some traveling to do before I get there. And that's OK. In fact, I would daresay that it is good that I am where I am.

I don't know what's going to happen.

But whatever does I need to remember.

Maybe writing this blog will in someway provide a safe place for me. An outlet for my frustrations and fears and everything in between. In the midst of all this transition, it could be a place of stability.

So here's to 2014.  Here's hoping it's a fun ride :)